| ramble, ramble, roar, roar |
[Jul. 15th, 2009|12:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Mer's - sf | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the weirdest movie ever | ] |
I'm about to go to my 2 year recurrent in salt lake. Inside I'm shitting a brick because I'm scared I'll fail miserabley and not be able to do my job. . which I kick ass at by the way. No worries, I'm going to study my ass off andfigure it out.
My bf is awesome. I'm in a good, stable, loving, drama-free relationship and I still find reasons to worry. I figure it's just what I do. I usually remind myself to mellow out . .
He keeps saying (ok like 3 times really) things about me moving in with him . . all generic, mid convo, no specifics, wtf? At first I was freaked but well hey, after a a couple months of that. I could see it. Pretty much I was fine until he started saying shit. So I say shit or get off the pot. Don't keep mentioning this general something in the future . . or do and I'll be dumb and worry about it. I don't have anywhere to live and want to find a roommate but it seems stupid considering I spend all my nights at Mike's and would never be there. I need somewhere to put my shit! I'm tired of free floating. I want my own space!! I don't want to move in with Mike until we're ready and because. .dun . .dun . .dun we want to live together! I'm getting there and I'm sure he is too. When a year from now?! so those two things are pretty much my twostupid worries.
Oh that and the I want my own space, I hate commuting to work, I want a real life and to be around . . not just a visitor.
Other then that my life is awesome. I have the loving friends and family thing going for me : )
eh, time to switch the laundry and get a shower then off to recurrent! AH wish me luck |
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| leggo my preggo! |
[Oct. 23rd, 2008|11:54 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Momma Bradley's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | south park, something or other | ] |
and now I'm in SF. I'm missing my brothers 23rd b-day so that I can be out here for Mer's baby shower. She's huge! I love it. She looks so front heavy I don't know how she doesn't just tip over constantly :) I can't help it I just want to rub her tummy and huge the crap out of her. I hadn't been out here for awhile. I was missing the Bradley's. I've been missing a lot of people lately though.
When I was at home last week Gemma laid into me about a lot of shit. I'm really glad she did because 1. she was spot on, on pretty much everything and 2. . . duh she gave me lots to think about and made things seem a little more clear and straight forward in my head then they've been in a good while. I am feeling very grateful to her at the moment once again for being a true friend to me and being there and honest whether I like it or not.
I need to regain a sense of control and order in my life. That's what her redoing my room is all about. She wants to give me an anchor, a place that I feel comfortable and can call mine. I feel like at my age and this stage in the game I shouldn't need these legs up. I have this strong need to earn it myself, to find my own way. With their help it makes things so much easier and by fighting it it seems to be hurting their feelings and making it an issue where before there was none. How old and what stage in your life do you have to be before parents trying to help you isn't right? All they want is for you to be happy and successful right? Why do I have an issue letting my dad help me? I feel like I have to take a kick in the pride.
My brain is tired. I don't think this is coming out right.
Oh and on the man front. I've had a bit of a upheaval there as well. Gemma again pointed out my steal re-enforced barriers to letting guys get close to me. My over awareness to guys blah blah. My brother and his friends for the last few years have been driving home how every guy you meet wants to fuck you. I now seem overly aware of that shit and never really relax and just get to know somebody. It's bullshit. I'm going with trying to relax and get to know people without the over awareness of sex sex sex. I'm not having it anyway so why worry. I'm working on it. I don't want to be a closed off person. I don't want to be anxious or hide behind walls.
once again there is work to be done
K ramble over. Sleep now. night all |
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| momma she's moving homeeee! |
[Feb. 21st, 2008|11:33 am] |
I'm not giving up on this journal. I think of entries all the time. Things I'd like to write but it never happens.
I'm moving my mom up from Burgaw, NC. The Uhaul is here and it's time to move it move it.
ps. my mom left her husband . . dun dun dun
That is all for now |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 7th, 2007|12:23 pm] |
Hiya,
feel like I haven't written in forever . . oh wait it has been.
I'm back in PA for about 4 days and trying to see as many people as possible while I am here. Problem? No one gets off until after 4 or 5 and I am booked up already. Sucks! There are many people I want to see and I feel like this visit has had a big countdown clock over it since the moment I stepped off the plane. Good news? I got to chill with Shannon Meehan for the first time in forever and I'm going to see Harry Potter 3D with her tonight. We used to be so close and I'm just happy to be able to stay in touch and know what's going on.
I really wanted to chill with the shmona shmona this week but it doesn't look like it's going to happen. The only night I had free fell through and now I'm all booked up. I want to just chill with her and see her new place. I want a mini reconnect I guess. I just feel like I put out most of the effort. I get that she's my lil hermit friend now but I miss her sometimes and I care about her so . .duh I want her in my life. I'm being stubborn on this one. Not many people click with you in your life. You know those people who actually get you.
I struggling with a major lack of that right now out in Milwaukee. I'm in a situation where I'm stuck around people I wouldn't choose to hang around with but I have no other choice so I have to suck it up and deal. So there I read a lot, keep my mouth shut, and work hard as hell to be patient and not get annoyed with certain personalities. wooo! I know it's just temporary and this is me paying my dues so that I can have the sweet life later on but meh here I am complaining anyway. Run-on sentence say what!?!?
Anywho, I am a full blown flight attendant now. I'm not without flaws yet but I have a feeling I'm going to do just fine. It's funny how at this point I can pick up and move and . . it doesn't bother me like it used to. I was almost worried by my lack of emotion about doing al of these things. I'm not particularly anything right now. I'm depressed but I'm not really happy . . I just am. I'm working on it.
My sister is trying to buy this house and I'm forcing some money on her so she can do it. She resisted but gave in after I explained how little I am responsible for and how much more it would mean to me if I could use my money to help her.
Alrigth I am out of the flow. My sister's baby woke up and now my niece is talking my ear off.
Peace! |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 3rd, 2007|04:18 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dad's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | supersystem - a million microphones | ] |
fun lil ditty. I was just coming home from work and got stuck behind this slow ass blue station wagon. He goes rediculously slow around the traffic circle and I ride up his ass a bit to let him know I think that was unreasonable. (not too much just a bit)
So I am following him and about 100 yards from my house he starts hitting the brakes. No signal
I assume he's a douche who doesn't signal and creep up on his ass again to again say (hey dude use a signal and I wouldn't be doing this)
He then turns in to the driveway three houses down from mine and screams out his open window
"FUCKING WHORE!"
Is this really neccessary sir??
I was a bit suprised at his reaction and then amused that it's my neighbor and apparently I really got to him. I didn't harasse him I just tailgated a few seconds when he was being a dumbass.
Right or wrong either way I found this funnny and felt like sharing.
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood . .
won't you be my neighbor?
Well hello there neighbor!
alright I'm out.
Peace |
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| missed trains and applesauce |
[Apr. 17th, 2007|11:13 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dad's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the shins - phantom limb | ] |
go apply to other (closer) job - on my way
make eye appt. - done (hello exton vision center)
c u 10:15 on tues
buy ipod - on my way
get passport - go make call now
trying to be productive and stop sleeping in and then working all night.
I just called my friends stepmom allyson to wish her a happy b-day. This lady is awesome and has always been there for me. Even right now, I wish her happy birthday and she starts asking me how I am and what I've been up to. I need to get out to see them. I miss those damn bradleys! Even a dial, bouhlt,and smith. My california family. . . poopookachoo
I haven't seen my bro in a week and I already miss him. I think this right now only because it's going to be realy interesting to see how the hell I figure out where to live and what will be the split of my time in the future.
conflicted
that's my word of the day because that's how I feel
ok off to get an ipod and get a job
good day sir! |
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| work,work,work, ~PARTY~ ,work |
[Apr. 15th, 2007|11:11 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Ang's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
I've been working my booty off and last night after a doubleon a frickin saturday I decided to take (cool new co-worker) jeff up on his offer to go to his party. I get there and holy fucking shit it was packed. Long story short I got drunk and partied the night away. Passed out cold at 7am. Woke up really out of it at 12something and poor jeff over two hours late for work. hauled ass and got myself to work and drug ass all night. Now I am spending the night at my sister's house and I ache all over from work and too much beer.
tomorrow - shopping for pants at goodwill . . and more work, woot!
night all |
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| snakes and a plan |
[Apr. 13th, 2007|05:48 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my dad's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  impressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nada - by the nada's | ] |
my baby boy is shedding again! Jeez this is his fourth time in three months. He's suppose to shed once every month or two. He's a growing beast! Problem is it's feeding time and I can't feed him until he sheds otherwise he'll vomit up his meal on me. *Note: half digested mouse bits are icky*
nada mucho has changed. I'm ready for an SF vaca . . but then I'm always wanted to be on vacation so what's new.
I did my taxes. $499 here I come.
My dad decided to have a heart to heart with me last night (while I'm folding silverware at work)
Pretty much he doesn't think I am going about things the right way right now. I have to admit . .
I think he's right.
He doesn't want me to get a car yet and wants me to focus on getting an airline job. He also wants me to get a job clsoer to where I am here so I'm not commuting for no damn reason and eating gas and putting miles on his blazer.
dad's right right right as usual
I have been focusing on making money for a car because I hate being dependant on someone else for anything. He would feel better about it if I worked closer. I think I am going to look into that. I feel bad because I think they need the help at lonestar and I don't know how ang will respond but . . I'm going to look around anyway.
I'm also going to schedule an eye exam so I can get the glasses thing out of the way. I need to go to hockessin for apply for my passport . . no biggy. I can do it I just need to plan and execute. Procrastinating pammy . buh buh buh!
ps. gohan will only curl up in my crotch . . sadly my blood circulation is poo and he never settles on me.
pss. I Just found out my Dad and Gemma are going to frickin Vegas baby! Lucky bastards! Good for them though
I have an uncle with emdless free flier miles and I can't ask him about them because he has already given me two free trips and anymore would make me an ASSHOLE! |
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| supergrass tales of endurance bah bah bah! |
[Mar. 30th, 2007|02:18 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dad's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pleased | ] |
| [ | music |
| | supergrass - roads to rouen | ] |
I bullied my bosses into letting me have off this weekend. Don't know if I'll have a jobola when I get home
Can we say Helloo applebee's!
I have to go pack and get a shower and shit. Crazy happy weekend starts now! |
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| bamboo and chatter |
[Mar. 28th, 2007|11:51 am] |
Hey Leila! Yes you there missy. We need to hang out! When we have a nice sunny day we should have a picnic in the bamboo forest or something. I'll bring the frosties!
I just thought of it and it's late so I can't text you.
G'nite hun |
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| homesick 4 cake |
[Mar. 26th, 2007|01:18 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my pops house | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bloc party - the prayer | ] |
I'm up and running folks. I got me a job at lonestar, woo :twirls finger lazily in air: I'm making money at least.
I have been super freaking homesick lately. I know that sounds wierd being that I am home. Unfortunately I feel like I have two homes and two families. No matter where I am, I am missing someone else terribley. :'(
Thus the getting of the airline job . . unfortunately I didn't want to do anything constructive when I got home and I partied for over two months. Don't get me wrong, I had a fucking blast and I'm glad that I could do it. The downside is now I am no closer to my goals and it's getting to me. I am not satisfied folks. I keep trying to remind myself that it's just going to take a bit of time but my heart doesn't seem to want to wait.
Here's what I have listed so far (just the biggies)
~ get car
~ apply for passport
~ get glasses (to pass eye test)
~ tweak resume and cover letter with mrs. M (I love this woman)
~ get ipod (radio stations over here play about two or three songs I like)
I'm so music starved I go on myspace and look up bands I like just to hear a few songs . . sad
Which speaking of that I really like the new bloc party cd . . wants . . to poor . . can't reason out buying it . . fuck!
Oh and motormark totally doesn't have a myspace page . . wtf motormark?! Sell out to myspace already, I miss you!
~ Start pumping my resume to every airline with an opening (research, research, research)
I keep having dreams where I'm with Mer or marissa and i've shown up late or missed something and they're all dissapointed in me. wtf man? Can we say I feel like I am missing out right now? :shrugs: I know anyone who reads this will probably say "fucking bitch, why'd you come home then?" Because it felt like what I needed to do, it felt like the right next step. Now the next step is getting the freedom to travel around unhindered so i can have my cake and eat it too.
I think it's funny how unmotivated to do anything I am until it threatens to drive me crazy and then it's all I can do. I'm motivated now!
I am absolutely in love with this song
bloc party - the prayer
go to my site I think it's my song. So much nice!
:bobs head along to song:
anywho it's time for pammy to go make some moneys.
take it easy beasey |
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| maneater! |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|03:07 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | the basement | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | motormark | ] |
I need an Ipod!!! I just went on the site and they have this new iPhone thing coming out. I want! It's the everything in one package that I've been looking for. The camera is still only 2 mpxls but still sweet! I will have this bitch. it will be done.
In other news I have been watching my sister's kids a lot lately and letting that be my excuse for not accomplishing anything else productive. This has to come to an end. I have been getting kind of down on myself about it lately. The solution . . divide and conquer. I will be making a check list of what I need to get done to get and be what I want.
I need to be empowered and take control and stop being a self destructive lil procrastinator. I have always been this way but I refuse to settle for a life I'm not happy in damnit! I have just been talking to shannon meehan . . she always puts things in perspective :) I have made no money today but at least I feel a bit better about my situation and what I have to do.
I am going to go get a shower now and go do something productive.
Oh and I started working out last night and it felt really good. I realized I have more fat on my stomach then I thought. I refuse to be overweight. I am one of two in my family who isn't and I plan to keep it that way.
Ok I so don't feel like typing anymore.
Take it easy! |
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| who me??? |
[Feb. 28th, 2007|11:20 am] |
wed - Wings night with the boys (all of my brother's boys that is)
thurs - concert with the shmona
(but just so it's clear it's only cause she doesn't want to go alone, wtfudge!)
Fri - watch munchkins, get munchkins to school, OFF 2 NY 4 THE WEEKEND!!
hope to see niki foley while I'm up there. Woot ! |
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| quickie |
[Feb. 22nd, 2007|11:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Ang's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rome motha fuckas! | ] |
Been watching kids all week. They're actually not bad at all. I'm learning how to deal with kids and not get completely tooled.
Looks like Mr. Jones is going to pull through. Everyone in the ICU is baffled. When it's all said and done . . they both will be bankrupt (don't think mom's insurance is going to cover his stay) I talked to her today finally and she let me talk as usual and kept it positive and I didn't have the heart to crap on it by talking about what she already knows.
Oh my aunt Janet died instead. She had lou gehrig's disease and has been in a way you don't want to imagine for a long time nowo apparently. It was my mommom's sister. The funeral is sunday.
Don't feel much like talking just felt the need to update
Sleepy time now |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 20th, 2007|03:07 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dad's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | yeah, yeah, yeahs | ] |
crisis averted! Wait, there was no crisis . . and not much happened. Well anyway
I figured my head out about the whole Jon wierd feelings and whatnot. Ironically my head cleared about the same time my hormons calmed down and stopped making me loco. I went to the boys house warming party this sunday and was feeling mildly confused but fog clearing up to that weekend.
I went, I partied, I had a really good time with all the boys. For some reason I'm not sure why . . I really care to be friends with them all. I always have a blast, I know they are all really good guys and I like being around them. Jon was totally cool of course. Actually Tom showed more of an interest in real conversation then Jon did. Which the fact that Tom is being so chill and friendly makes me happy. He talks to me like an old friend and has referenced positively back to shit from when we dated. I was really nervous about being around him and now I feel like I can relax. I guess I had it built up a bit in my head since I hadn't seen him in so damn long. I thought he would be awkward around me or something.
The family front is not so good. My moms husband (mr. jones) is dying. His liver and kidneys are failing due to his alcoholism. It's much more involved but nobody needs to hear that shit. We knew it would happen but for some reason didn't think it would .. not really. I just feel sad for him and his daughters. My mom is having a bit of a breakdown over it and Ang had to rush down to be with her. My stupid crackhead sister is still down there (rehabing) pfft! So I stepped up to take care of the kids. I don't do much. I just spend the night down there and take care of the twins all morning and get them off to school by 12:30. I feel like such a selfish person the way I live my life. When it comes to family, personal sacrifice to help out shouldn't be a question . . it's what you do. Ang tries to tell me "your 22, what you do is what you should be doing at your age." I asked her what she was doing at my age?? hmm . . three year old, full responsibility . .
I think this is what has me generally positive most of the time. I know I have people who love me and the freedom to slack of a bit or go after whatever I want. Not too shabby for the pamela . . nope nope, definitely not.
When I think of mr. Jones I just hear his voice in my head. He ruined himself but he was always a good hearted person. He was always so supportive and caring towards me. I can't believe I'm never going to hear his voice again. I've never lost someone before. Jeez . . I can't get into these thoughts. I need to visit my mom more
My dad and I haven't had the best communication since I got home. I was everywhere when I got back and now that I have mellowed out we still haven't talked. I feel like he is annoyed with me or dissapointed that I haven't worked harder at getting a car and have just kind of been relaxing. I have crapped on myself a few times about this as well but when it comes down to it. I'm really greatful for this half assed time. I know I will get there and do what I have to do. I'm not all that worried about it honestly. I'm getting there . . he just has to have a bit more faith in me.
I think that's about it. This is everything in my head right now. Now that I am done. I think I might go take a nap . . that's right a nap. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|09:04 pm] |
Hello !
I'm in my last two days in San Fran and I'm chilling with my favorite people in the world out here. Mer's making some bad ass rosotto, Yum! I don't have much to say right now. I'm just feeling mellow as shit and oh . . . .
I got my nipples pierced today!!!!
I fucking love it. The piercer Tommy was fucking rad as shit. Almost every piercer I have ever met has been super nice and super hot. I was nervous about being topless but he was so chill that I got comfortable pretty damn quickly. He was really happy with my nipples and was saying how perfect they were. So after he pierced them he asked if he could take photos for his portfolio. So if anyone wants to see exactly what my tits look like . . go to hate street, enter Anubus Warpus, and ask to see the portfolio . . there they be : D!
Ok have a nice night all
Woot I'm out! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2006|07:48 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 29 | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nada- by the nadas feel the silence | ] |
So my leaving date wasn't as firm as I thought. I'm now leaving January 10th at 10:35pm so I assume that I will be getting in sometime thursday morning. Woot. oh well
Meredith called me last night to inform me that they found a great person to replace me . . . yayyyyy : (
I totally set this in motion but now that it's actually happening it still sucks. Moving is emotionally taxing man! It's all good and this is a blip on the radar that is my life but shit man. I'm going to miss a lot about being out here. I am super excited about all the folks I'm going to see back home. I know this is what I needed to do. It's just difficult to close the chapter of your life that you frickin loved. Make the best of it and what not.
Anywho . . I'm pooped and don't feel like writing anymore so in case I miss you. Merry Christmas everybody! |
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| I wanna be the one to walk in the sun |
[Dec. 18th, 2006|05:32 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 29 | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bummed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Time after Time - Cindy Lauper | ] |
Hey-o!
So I'm all booked up to come home. I will be landing in Philly around 8pm on Sunday January the 7th ! Yay!
Last night me, the roomies and a few friends went out. Elise had a big fancy work party and we tagged along for a reason to dress pretty and free food and booze. She works for mens warehouse so I got to see their spokeman guy. You know the one "your gonna like the way you look, I guarentee it" guy. I got all dolled up and happy and ready to go. Mer took the air out of my happy balloon. Everything I wanted to do she didn't feel like it and didn't waste time being nice about it. I had an alright night over all but yeah . . I don't know what mer's deal is.
I feel like i'm in a bad relationship. I say anything and she doesn't respond how she use to. I just feel like I'm feeling the affects of me going. She's not being very nice to me at all. Col has been doing this thing lately where he talks to me like a child. He's a dick then he talks to me like I'm retarded and he knows my mind and why I'm doing this better then me. God I love when people see me having a hard time and think they know what I think and feel. I don't feel the need to have to justify myself to him or anybody for that matter. I know why I am leaving and all this is just making it more painful yet easier to go. Sucks. I really wanted to stay close with people and come out as much as possible. I feel like Mer's already cutting me loose and my foots not even out the door yet. : ( whatev
I didn't get any addresses from you mofo's on here so I'm assuming no one wants a card with real action glitter snow in it. If you do you better tell me what's up so I can send on out asap.
K I got some cards to finish up. Happy holidays people! |
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| vica vica din din! |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|07:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my house | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  medicated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mer and jonny talkin | ] |
So I set the date of when I am coming home. I'm shooting for the 7th of January :D Less than a month bitches. I am super excited to get back home. I will be looking for a flight attendant job but I will have lots of free time to reconnect with people probably for the first chunk of time that I am home.
I have a disclaimer before I continue - I'm on a good dose of vicadin right now so if anything comes out weird or jumbled . . mah bad! I have a good reason why I'm on it. I'm not just dosing myself I swear.
Last week I started getting a really bad tooth and jaw ache. My wisdom teeth were never taken care of so they tend to hurt from time to time. It got really bad so I made an appointment to get checked out and when I got there the doc told me that all four of my wisdom teeth were super infected and impacted and all needed to come out right now. I have been saving my little heart out to come home so I could buy a car and get around and whatnot. I hate the idea of being dependant on my dad. I'm a big girl damnit. Anywho, I tell the doc I'm moving and I really can't afford $2500 in dental bills right now. We hash it out and he settles for taking my bottom two . . $800 POOF! Now I have a good deal of nerve pain and a rip in my cheek from the hole in my jaw and I spent most of what I had saved up on it ta boot! Woot! I'm bummed but it had to be done so :shrugs:
Other than that shits been ok. Stuffs always weird when your leaving. I've been hella over sensitive lately and of course they're way of dealing is to bust on me for going and make me feel like shit. Than tell me how much they love me and how I just don't know how much I will be missed. What I don't think they get is . . I hate this too. I'm not leaving because I don't love them. I don't want to lose them either but I feel like I'm doing the right thing for myself and my life. I don't want to live a life without my family being a big part of it. I need to put my family first and work everything else out around it. I'll work it out. That's about it for that. I have loose ends to tie up . . aka. selling that fucking car . . that's it really. Oh and hopefully this girl meredith has been talking to will be as perfect as she seems and will move her ass up here pronto! I just want it all to work out and I think it'll all come together so I can go and be secure that my roomies are taken care of.
Ok that's about it. Random facts: Drew likes a girl. If you knew him, you'd know that that fact is huge!
Oh and I'm getting my nipples pierced before I come home. Me and mer are going together. The piercer is super hot . . aren't they all? I would definitely try and hit on this guy if I was sticking around. So Hot, want to touch. (what adam sandler movie is that from . . billy madison?)
I'm getting vertical barbells :) Sorry if that's TMI for you guys but whatev
I'm really nervous only because I'm going to have to expose myself to someone that
1 - I don't know
and
2 - I'm kind of interested in
I've talked with this guy before when I took my friend to get her industrial done there for her b-day. Maybe I'll hit on him anyway and see what happens. I haven't seen anyone I've been remotely interested in in a long time. Not really you know. I'm trying to do this new thing were I pursue boys that I want instead of allowing boys I'm not super into to come after me. It's my thing. I get pursued and end up with someone that's not for me because I don't want to hurt their feelings or convince myself that it could be something good. Poo on that. The next one, I'm hand selecting so it's noones fault but my own if he sucks.
Ok this is long. Peace! |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2006|01:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| [ | music |
| | Pay Back | ] |
Hey-o! I'm stealing Leila's idea.
I bought christmas cards! Now all I want to know is . . who wants one?? Come on Who wants one???
I need addresses bitches! If you don't want to post it on here just e-mail me @ canucme713@hotmail.com
Thank you much
Oh and my last entry. I talked it out with Mer. I was being overly sensitive apparently. She still loves me, just sad that I am leaving.
K k don't feel like talking much. Love ya bye! |
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